This is really hard, but that's how it always goes. i just hope everything works out alright. maybe i'll go down to pittsburgh this weekend and hangout. maybe i'll stay at home and never leave the house. who knows.

I've decided to put all my effort into moving on. i still care a ton for her, but i think it will be better for the both of us. I'm not going to keep my hopes up, especially hoping for her to change her plans again, to be once more in my direction. things change and fall apart, but we'll always be friends. i guess i can hope for that.

I've been kind of slacking in school. not bad or anything, but definitely more than i have this year. but then again, i really didnt slack at all this year. i only have 2 classes! so i cant! But this week will give me a reason to slack. this is going to be tough. i never wanted to be here again. alone. but i guess that's what life is made of. heart breaks and disappointments. happiness can be measured by the height you bounce back. i never left the ground.