Well... tonight ended odd to say the least. I get home from eat 'n park with black ass matt and after he leaves, i message this girl who added xrepresentx on myspace. So, basically she's telling me how she tried/is in the process of killing herself. it's pretty fucked up. I hope it's not a joke. but i kinda do. i spent like an hour tryin to talk her out of it/into calling 911. it didnt work. after a bnit she'd stop writing, then i'd wake her up im'ing her. then she stopped writing and signed off a little later.

jake thinks it was all bullshit. i hope it is. i just find that really sad, even if i didn't know her. and it's even sadder knowing that if she died, i'd be the last one she talked to. that's some shit. she'd be the third korean to break my heart. her case wouldnt be "i like you alot" heartbreak... more so, "i dont want you to die, you seem cool" heartbreak. She's only 16. i hope this isnt the end.

Getting this job with redbull wouldnt fix EVERYTHING in my life. but it'd fix the second biggest problem. It'd be such a sweet job. Passing out redbull. Fuck, that's so easy, plus they are good with taking time off. THIS RULES. I'm sooo keping my fingers crossed.

She's not dead. Good.