I read coles journal


I heard it for myself

Disappointment Reigns in 2005. And just because it's 2006 doesnt make it any different.

I guess i saw it coming, and who am i to expect anyone except me could ever actually stay straight edge. I'm glad to know i wont actually be the only one, but damn... someone give me a break here.

I'm sure i'll here plenty of "It's their choice!" and "Don't Judge!" and "Why do you care??!!"

SAVE x IT. As if i shouldnt care. As if YET ANOTHER friend(s) of mine selling the fuck out wouldnt bother me. Reasons, schmeasons. I still like ya, but Its just another Day of the Weak.

I was gonna reply to tony's comment, but i figured i'd just make this an entry

Here's how i feel:

Straight Edge is a personal choice, but you publicly look like an asshole if you sell out. I don't take half assing straight edge lightly. It irritates the piss out of me, because it's one of the main things in my life. That doesn't mean it's the main thing in everyones, but when you ARE straight edge, it SHOULD be.

I know many people who have sold out, some i like, some i hate... but everyone of them had one thing in common. My Disappointment. It may not have mattered that i didn't approve. Good. But i'm not gonna lie and say it's cool. It's not, and i hope that realization hits them someday. With many of them, i know it's a matter of time before they say "Whoa... i fucked up." I can see it in their "life" now. It's a complete downward spiral. Good for them. I'm glad they chose the shitty end of the stick.

Some people think, "well, would you rather them have stayed straight edge??".... YES. Of course. C'mon, is that even a question? Sure they just weren't cut out, but i guess i always assume that people are when they take straight edge. I mean, do people really NOT THINK ABOUT IT??? I guess so. It's sad to think that people can really just all of a sudden stop giving a shit. but that happens all the time, in many aspects of life. You aren't the first to sell out, and you won't be the last. But you are one, and that will never change.

But for me, i'll be straight edge even when all you have alzheimers and don't even remember what it is.