Derek Ski ([info]xderekskix) wrote,
@ 2005-11-11 13:30:00
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I seriously have no clue what the fuck i'm doing. I dont know how to make myself feel better. hangin out with friends is awesome, but there will always be times that i'm alone and i'll think. Or i'll talk to deneane and be forced to think, haha.

Everyday, there's a point where i think to myself "I'm not doin so bad. It'll be over soon, and you can start feeling better." Then something will happen to remind me, (which is a WIDE WIDE WIDE array of things) and i'll realize i'm no further along than a month ago. How does this happen to me? Like, aren't i nice? Don't i deserve something after years of being dicked?

The only time i've ever prayed more than now to help me move on, is when i was praying to make it work. you figure God can't leave me on my own with both ends of the situation. Sometimes i feel great, other times i feel like i'm lying to myself. I know this is going to kill me for a while. Judging by my past exploits, i can only expect that 2008 might be a good year for me. Everything in between will suck.

WHAT THE FUCK

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[info]xpfishx
2005-11-11 08:33 pm UTC (link)
Life is a crazy game. You have your highs, and you have your lows, and you have that platoe in between. You just have the make the best of any situation you come across. I know it is much easier said than done, but by focusing on the negative aspects of the situation you are just going to be engulfed by negativity and depression.

You might now have a girl in your life, but you have your health, you have your friends, you have your band, you have lots of other things as well. Focus on that.

If that fails:

Grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change,
The power to change the things I can,
And the power to know the difference.

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[info]the_suture
2005-11-12 01:06 am UTC (link)
Dude why are you being so negi? Having a girlfriend isn't everything in the world. I was recently at the point that I wanted a boyfriend really badly and I just decided to go out with someone that I knew would want to go out with me and it sucked. we split up right away.
I'm way more content now being single. Its better to wait for someone thats good for you rather than going out with some girl who turns out to be shitty.

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[info]xderekskix
2005-11-12 05:28 am UTC (link)
but you're a bull dyke, haha

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[info]the_suture
2005-11-12 07:32 am UTC (link)
hey stop calling me a bull dyke. at least I can get a boyfriend.

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[info]xderekskix
2005-11-12 03:22 pm UTC (link)
i probably could too.

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